2013 arrived and was not greeted with the usual resolutions such as those made in 2012:
Limit alcohol intake
Penguin run – frequently and on a schedule
Living situation-Move out
Change job or get a better job with better location and better pay
The resolutions of 2012 are now discarded. The New Year of 2013 came at midnight when the clock struck twelve and casted the resolutions of the old into an ‘unresolved’ imaginary bin stored in the back of my brain.
But, the consequence of making those resolutions in 2012 were severe:
Instead of losing weight I gained ten more pounds
Alcohol –a lil bit more instead of a lil bit less
Penguin run-what is that again?
Living situation-the move out turned into the barely living, drowning in frustration at my financial inability to move out
Same job and definitely no better location and no raise let alone a Christmas bonus
This year, with the new, New Year approaching, instead of the usual in my bed by 10pm sleep induced reception, I was awake. And no, I did not watch the dreadful ball drop on TV for it triggers memories of a New Year’s past in which my butt was fondled and molested in the melee of a crowd gone wild while watching the old ball (sans the 2,688 Waterford crystal triangles) drop live and in person in the pre-Giuliani Times Square.
But, this year there are no resolutions.
Attempting to construct resolutions for 2013 may be good in keeping with the spirit of the New Year thingy but if 2012’s resolution results are an indication of what will come, I think I’ll pass this year. There’s no need to go through the ‘unresolved’ feelings of disappointment at not meeting impossible expectations. No point in shoving the disappointment into my brain where it will stagnate and fester turning into the unrequited resolve of the resolutions. And no, the toxicity of that mess will not migrate to mi alma (my soul) for clutter and suffocation are not allowed to reside there, only torment, bliss and friction of every emotional kind.
Instead of resolutions, I welcome subtle and easy changes towards achieving goals. Subtle, like breathing in and out and so easy as in not having to think too much about the process itself.
The subtle and easy changes require a difference each day in the way I think and do things. All things, from putting on my socks (left first instead of right) to the amount of pep milk (a little one day, a lot the next) in my coffee. I will take a slightly different route while walking the street, like walking on the opposite side of the streets I walk down.
My subtle and easy approach towards tackling larger goals will bring results.
Some of the goals I’ve set in motion involve learning and practicing meditation, consuming less meat and enrolling in a running program. Subtle and easy. Attending meditative classes, abstaining from meat until the weekends, running with a group instead of alone-just doing those little things which are subtle and so easy will lead me to obtainable goals.